Today at 10 o’clock I get to do a full CT scan, head to toe, to find the cancer. I have an appointment at 3.30 pm on Thursday to be given the news. Can’t wait. At this stage I feel I can’t tell the family because I don’t know exactly what is wrong with me but I should know by then.
The major concern is how quickly I go downhill and how John will manage without me. I will have to make sure he has all the information about banking, paying bills, passwords etc. as that has become my job in the last few years.
We decided against Aqua Fit today. There was just too much to process. I imagine as soon as the cancer is found I will go to a specialist and then be in hospital for surgery if it is not too far gone. Then I suppose there will be chemotherapy and or radiation. I most probably will have to cancel the trip to Fiji (Blue Lagoon Cruise next April). I booked it to coincide with my 75th birthday. We were to fly out from Sydney on April 1st, board the Fiji Princess on the 3rd, visit a different island every day with snorkelling off the boat, exploring tropical beaches and visiting villages. John would also celebrate his 81st birthday on the cruise. I even took out insurance to cover all his medical problems. It didn’t occur to me I would have any of my own!
Then should we sell the house? Maybe we should begin by selling the caravan as I can’t imagine John going off travelling on his own. Maybe I should start reading about “Swedish Death Cleaning” while I still have the energy. One thing is for sure, if I’m seriously ill I’m getting a house cleaner!
I was awake most of last night just thinking so hopefully will have a full night’s sleep tonight.
I had to finish eating before 8 am and then drink 750 ml of water. Finally, 9.45 am dragged around and John drove me to PPG Imaging. They injected iodine dye into my vein and I had a head, neck, shoulder to pelvis CT scan which is:
Computed Tomography Scan, using specialised X-rays and computer technology to produce detailed, cross sectional 2D or 3D images of bones, organs and tissues.
I wonder what they will find?
Apparently, my doctor is booking me in to see a Neurosurgeon (a specialist who diagnoses, treats and manages disorders of brain, spinal cord, spinal column and peripheral nerves). Maybe this is all a bad dream and it is just some benign tumour on the spine. One can hope!
To keep my myself busy I advertised the kayaks and the roof racks on Facebook Marketplace. Might as well start decluttering.
Some time later: I was able to cancel the Blue Lagoon Cruise and the flights with Fiji Air. I lost the deposit and a portion of the air fares but the travel insurance covered the lost money. A big thank you to the Registrar in Haematology for his supportive letter to the insurance company.
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